I’m at Week Eight. And still going.
This week we, as a family, have decided that it’s strictly protein and vegetables. Yup, that’s it. It isn’t so bad actually. Monday night was Caprese Chicken. Pounded boneless, skinless chicken breast stuffed with fresh mozarella and basil leaves, pan seared in olive oil and then finished in the oven topped with died Italian tomatoes and parmesan cheese. It was really good. And I barely missed the breading. Last night was a shrimp and vegetable stir fry. Loads of veggies, sesame oil and a little Korean Barbecue sauce for a hint of sweetness. Those bottled sauces are loaded with carbs! I am allowing myself <20 grams of carbs per day, so just 2 tablespoons of that was 6 grams! It just needed a hint though, so it worked. Andrew didn’t like it. He doesn’t like Asian food, which is fine because there was more for me!
I know you’re wondering how I did. Well, I am still at the same weight I was last week. But I’m going to stick with this way of eating for awhile. After having all my labs drawn and briefly speaking with my doctor over the phone, it seems like this may be a positive step in the right direction. My labs revealed quite a few risk factors that I am not ready to accept. Or shall I say, refuse to accept. It’s time to kick it up a notch or two! More exercise, better sleep habits, stress reduction techniques. It’s time to make some pretty big lifestyle changes. I’m ready to give it my all. AGAIN! You too?
I will be seeing an Endocrinologist tomorrow and am hoping that she can shed some light on what is going on and guide me to the best way to get in top shape. Peak performance! Best shape of my life! I’m not talking about just better shape than I am right now. I’m talking great! Tons of energy, healthy cholesterol and blood sugar levels and let’s be real here, a smoking bod! Come on, face it. We all say we want to feel good, be in shape healthy for our kids, want more energy, blah, blah, blah.
But you know and I know we want to feel attractive. If you deny this, you’re lying. You can want both. It’s okay. It’ll be our little secret.
Naked is the new black!
We want to look in the mirror and say “Damn! I look gooooooood!” We want our partners to think we’re sexy. I,m very lucky, I know it doesn’t matter what I look like or how much I weigh. I’m fortunate to have a husband who thinks I am the most beautiful woman in the world. But I don’t and that’s what matters. Right now I am the heaviest I have ever been and I feel it. Not only in my jeans but in my head.
I feel defeated because I am fighting this battle and not making any strides. I feel weak when the urge to eat something I know isn’t helping me reach my goal gets the best of me. I get frustrated with myself and angry at those people around me who are reaching their goals. Why can they do it and I can’t? I avoid social situations whenever possible. I don’t go to the beach because I’m embarrassed of how I look. I don’t like to go to exercise classes because I am afraid of being judged. I fidget with my clothes constantly in an attempt to hide myself. I am not comfortable in both my clothes and my skin right now.
But that is about to change. Stay tuned! These eight weeks have not been wasted just because I haven’t lost the twenty pounds I wanted to lose. I have been learning what is and isn’t working and I have done a lot of soul searching. I am ready for week nine to see some positive results. If those results don’t show on the scale, they’ll reveal themselves elsewhere. I guess it’s just a matter of where I look.
Thanks for sticking with me! It means the world!