Yes, that’s right. Happy New Year! If you’re thinking I’ve hit my head or hit the bottle, neither is correct. Well, maybe one is correct. So why, you ask am I saying “Happy New Year”? Well, I’ll tell you.
My birthday is in May. Anyone who knows me well, knows that I hate my birthday. Always have. Put your psychology pants away folks, it’s simple. I hate the thought of getting older. I don’t even like songs that make me think of getting older. “Landslide” by Fleetwood Mac sends me into a fit and even though I love Luke Bryan
and his butt, the song “Fast” makes me want to sit in a corner, look at the kids’ baby pictures and cry.
I don’t even really like to celebrate anyone’s birthday. It isn’t uncommon for me to even forget my family. I may have had to wrap up a pair of my husband’s jeans for his birthday just so the kids could give him something. I lost a few votes in the “Best Wife” category that year. I did go out and get a nice Carvel cake though. No one can resist those crunchy cookie thingies. Ok, that didn’t really earn me back any more wifey points. But it was something.
Since I have always looked at my birthday as such a negative thing, I try very hard to use that month as a time to make positive changes. My New Year. I always have my annual physical and mammogram in May. See how fun and positive? I started this blog in May. Keep an eye out for some rocking blogiversary giveaways, by the way. YAY! More positivity!
The past year has been kind of a crappy health year for me. Lyme disease, a hysterectomy, anxiety, weight gain. All of it. Honestly, I’ve been in complete denial about the weight gain.
“Damn yoga pants shrunk in the dryer!”
Have you been there? It sucks when you finally see it. It’s definitely a “WTF?” moment.
I woke up the other morning and when I looked in the mirror, I saw my grandmother. It was horrifying. I loved my Grammy to pieces and all, but truth be told, she looked like Ursula, the Sea Witch from The Little Mermaid. For realz. If you knew her, you’re laughing right now. Now that you have that picture in your head, you can imagine it was a wake up call for me. I couldn’t hit the “Register Now” button on the Weight Watcher site fast enough I tell ya.
It seems like everything hit me all of a sudden. I was putting on my makeup and I said words to myself that no woman, or person for that matter, should ever say. Mean things. Things that would break my heart in teeny tiny pieces if I ever heard them come from my daughter’s mouth.
“You can’t make a horse out of horse shit”
Then I cried, had a little panic attack at the thought of the loss of control
my youth, blew my nose, pulled on my big girl pants (literally and metaphorically) and decided getting a plan of action would be more beneficial than say, taking down a pint of Ben & Jerry’s.
Negative thinking can be very powerful if you choose to use it in a positive way. Those nasty words didn’t force me to throw on a pair of old sweatpants, take an Atavan and cry until my eyes swelled shut. No siree bub! They pushed me to make some changes and do something about the things that are annoying me and adding to those previously mentioned panic attacks.
Time time is now for positive changes!
Don’t want to be fat?
Stop eating crap and move your ass.
Don’t like missing appointments and being late all the time?
Get your shit together!* stay tuned for more on that topic (wink, wink, hint, hint)
Want changes in your life?
Make them happen! No one else is gonna do it for you.
Want to feel pretty?
Spend some time on yourself. Color your hair, buy a new pair of shoes, get your nails done, get a facial, wax something. It does take time, especially as you age (sympathetic pat on your back).
Whatever it takes! You deserve it! We all do.
I am going to be 46 people! FORTY-EFFING-SIX! Closer to 50 than 40. I can hear AARP calling my name in the distance. It’s time to get shit done.
This is my time! I’ve said it many times before, as I’m sure many of you have also. But,
I can’t do anything about yesterday. I can only change right now.
Today I’m stepping out of my comfort zones, stopping the excuses for what is holding me back, and taking steps to make those positive things happen. I have 2 major issues that need to be tackled and have the crap beat out of them right now. Health and Organization. Who’s with me? You forty something women out there with busy lives and busy kids? I know you’re with me! Oh and hey, if you aren’t with me, can you send me some helpful tips, because I’m a big ol’ mess right now.
What is is that you want to change? I would absolutely love to hear from you. I’m dying to know what kind of crap is holding you back and making you’re life a little less happy. We’re all in this together.